A Myriad of Emotions

Hello world!
Today is my first blog post. Why am I doing this blog you ask? Well, quite frankly, I'm just not sure.
Maybe I have something to say, maybe I have something I need to put in writing. Maybe I'm mixed with a myriad of emotions about the whole thing. No matter what the reason, I am here.

What is my whimsy of today you ask?
It's about perfection, or should I venture to say, the lack thereof.
I've often been told that I am a perfectionist. The first time someone called me that, I was outraged. I told them in no uncertain terms that I knew I was NOT perfect nor could anyone ever be perfect. The answer surprised me. The person quite calmly and very lovingly told me that a perfectionist is not someone who thinks they are perfect, it is someone who STRIVES to be perfect and then beats themself up because they are NOT perfect. I will admit to being overcome with speechlessness. And yes, anyone who knows me will tell you it is quite an accomplishment to do so with me! LOL

So here I was, being taught a lesson about how I beat myself up all the time because I'm not perfect, even when I know that perfection is an elusive commodity, one that you can never fulfill. And so my journey to find myself started with that single thought. And here I am years later remembering that very valuable lesson every time I make a mistake, which admittedly is not often, but when it does occur remembering that I am only human.

And yet every day, I strive to push myself harder and harder, towards what, I wonder? I know it is no longer perfection because I have dealt with the demons on that front and truly realized there is no perfection. So every day I get up at 4:45am and get on the bus to go to the gym and start my day striving for...shall I say it...YES! The best that I can be today!

That needs to be good enough...until tomorrow!